December 2009
47 posts
Take every step in obedience
I wanted to do a 2009 summary of my life. Then I thought, ‘What’s the point?’ So I decided not to. In one sentence, 2009 was (soon to be) definitely an unforgettable year.
How are you spending your last day of 2009? Hmm. As usual, it’s just another ordinary day for me. Did some accounting, decided to head down to Jurong Point for a walk on my own (I know, such a loner, boo...
“The difference between school and life? In school, you’re taught a lesson and...”
– Tom Bodett
Randomity of Life #2
29th of the last month of the year. Do you rmb what you did on the 29th last month? I did. Haha, not funny.
Tummy, please get well, and if possible, get well with all the fats gone. :/
I just heard, 1 more bday party to attend in the 3rd wk of Jan. Hmmm. Owell. BAH. When I tell others, I just might not, might not have a bday party for my 21st. They all go, “WHY?” :X Can I...
Randomity of Life #1
Good morning! I have school at 12pm, and I’m going to class not prepared, not even 1%, cos I havent done my assignment. ): I’m such a slacker, I need to buck up (Haha).
The stupid neighbour living just right above my room (YES, my room), should STOP DRILLING so early in the morning at 930am! WAH LAU EHXZ. Imma kill him/her very soon.
On a side note, mommy’s on leave this entire...
Love will come to save us
Love is a shelter in a raging storm Love is peace in the middle of a war And if we try to leave; May God send angels to guard the door No, Love is not a fight but its something worth fighting for
So near yet so far
Dear D, you can do better. You must do better.
It’s the last Sunday of 2009! I didn’t even realise it until I stepped into church, and the worship leader and speaker were just mentioning it. Owell.
It’s time for a breather-break I suppose. I don’t know how long it’s gonna last though. I just know I need to breathe.
I’ve never been a fan of new year...
Fighting to stay alive
Woke up to the loud drilling from the neighbour above. Tsk.
It doesn’t feel like the year is ending, maybe it’s just age, every festival or holiday just seem like any ordinary day. Next year’s the year of the 21-s. Spell o.l.d. Everyone’s having their birthday parties, I alrdy have 2 to attend in the first 2 weeks of Jan. Oh dear me. As for me, am I gonna have one myself?...
5 mins to the end of Christmas'09
Broke down and cry again.
Depressedgalxz#1@hotmail.com
Blessed Christmas, everyone!
So I’m back. And very tired, cos we walked SO much, I thought my whole body was gonna give way (okay, just exaggerating). But my shoulders and back are aching quite badly, as usual. I wonder why it’s that part of my body instead of my legs. Disneyland was a disappointment. And whoever cries in Disney besides young kids and babies? Well, the answer is me....
Let the reason be love
So I guess it’s really time to just enter a pause-mode in life. It’s amazing how love can teach you so many things not just about yourself but about people, about human beings. Yknw it’s really sad, and I mean really sad, or rather deeply regrettable to know that actually I was the one. It really took a great hit on me.
I know there’s nothing much I can do now. I just...
“Love means holding on to someone just as hard as you can because if you don’t,...”
– Tony (Impulse, Ellen Hopkins)
“It takes a lot of faith to give love and even more faith to let yourself be...”
– Hayley Williams
Even if you were a million miles away
Rather than holding on to a broken dream, I’ll just hold on to love.
Dear D,
You can do better than this.
xx
How now brown cow?
Just came home from church. It was combined service in the afternoon, and it’s nice to worship with just the grand piano. Love the way the pianist played. I wish I was gifted in that sense. My fingers are so “hard” now they can hardly run on the keys, and what’s more, I’ve lost the passion I used to have for this instrument. Baptism service always touch my heart. When...
11pm; broke down and cry
I’m fighting so hard. I’m really fighting very hard. And God said to persevere. Breathe. Oh Lord, please tell me the day I’ve been fighting so hard for will eventually come. )’:
Just wanna be loved by you
BRRR. Such a cold day that even after a hot hot steamy bath, I still feel cold, and my fingers still feel numb.
The rain ruined the whole picnic plan at marina barrage, but nonetheless, we still managed to have our little sheltered picnic. Just that it was freezing cold. Maybe it’s the rain, or maybe it’s the place, maybe it’s the car ride… I don’t know… Just...
Dust in the wind
Why can’t we all just give peace and love a chance?
It’s been such an emotional, very extremely emotional 2-3 months for me. )’: Sometimes, I just hate being so emotional. But that’s just what emotions are all about eh? We can’t help it, we just feel it. I guess this is just a “growing up” stage where every individual will go through some point in their...
No one like you
Good morning. So I’m just left with 1 more day of class on the 28th, and 1 stupid accounting assignment, and I’m done with school for this year. Hmm.
Everyone’s flying off for holidays, some to meet their boyfriends, some to spend time with their loved ones, some to getaway for Christmas, others are making plans for Christmas parties, buying presents; everyone’s just...
Someday we'll know
Just came back from an aftn spent with the ladies in the family (incl extended family). Had a nice time experiencing, well you can say the “atas (highclass)” kinda life. Had lunch with Mom, Godma, and Jie Viola at The Marmalade Pantry @ Ion, after which the rest (Sis, Jie Vel, and Ern) joined us for tea at TWG @ Ion, where we queued for 1 freaking hour! ): Hmm. I wish I could visit...
Heart-quake
I had a very beautiful dream last night. So beautiful that I saw myself smiling, or as what others used to say, glowing with radiance. But, a dream is after all a dream. It got cut off when my alarm clock rang. And when I opened my eyes, I know I’m just that broken-hearted girl.
When you’re supposed to give me a wake-up call but overslept instead,When I see the guilt on your face when...
Like I'm a stranger on this road
MONDAY BLUES. ): SO blue.
Backache; I really wonder why? ): I didn’t sleep well last night, and when I finally fell aslp, it was about time to wake up. Sigh. And I don’t dare to take aftn naps cos I’m scared I can’t sleep at night. Double sigh.
Lunch with June after class. Confession: Actually I kinda forgot about it, oops, sorry. But thankfully I ended class late and got...
And it seemed everlasting
Why do all the songs that I hear on the playlist/radio remind me of you? )’:
My weekends are getting really boring and at times, kinda miserable, without you. The sunday aftn has just begun, but I’m alrdy back at home after church, and sorta done with my day. Sad.
Whenever I’m driving, I always think of you. Remember the times when I was still learning how to drive, the times...
In my brokenness;
Why do I feel so weak; like I’m about to crumble and fall? )’:
Dear Deee,
You’re not supposed to give up. You have to keep breathing. So, just, keep breathing.
Love, Deee
Melancholy;
When I feel heavyhearted, please, come and take my hand.
I can only imagine
It’s a bright sunny & clear day; perfect for a date? :/
Drove down to Holland V for a quick late dinner with Zk and Sihui last night. It’s been so long since I saw Zk, and boy, he’s looking so much better. Talked, or rather listened to lots of army stuff, but I guess that’s the norm, ain’t it? Realised that I actually understood most of the stuff he was saying,...
“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s going to be really hard; we’re gonna have to...”
– Nicholas Spark (The Notebook)
Becos you're so beautiful to me;
We decided to skip the aftn class and head down to catch a midday movie. I thought that was a brilliant idea, becos my day started off pretty rough, and so, lesson felt like a chore, and it has always been a bore. Wandered off to my dreamland a couple times during the morn class, and my mind was just dreaming/thinking of you. So the movie we caught was Disney’s The princess & the frog....
Maybe it's not okay afterall
Town after school with ah lee, and I had a ride from mel! Yay. Feels like forever that I’ve stepped into town, but actually, it wasn’t that long ago. Sat at starbucks for some time and we were just talking about the topic on “independence”. If you asked me that question a year ago, I would just simply tell you what the old me will say, “I can survive on my own”....
“Every song reminds me of how it used to be. ):”
Just trying to play my role
Every night before I go to bed, I hear myself saying, “Sigh, it wasn’t a happy day (again).” Seriously, I kinda forgot when was the last time I had a good laugh, or had a great day. Dear happy, hmm, what do you feel like? :/
It’s tuesday, a really bright tuesday. Now that I’m home and no longer in the air-con lecture room, I’m getting grumpy cos I’m...
We live and we learn
MONDAY BLUES. ):
I had to drag myself outta bed this morning, cos I was so reluctant to go to school. SIGH. Surprisingly, I paid quite a bit of attention in class. Bought chocolates for the girls, and mel made cheesecake for us. HAH. spell F.A.T = FAT.
Got an early morning text from mom saying grandma’s in hospital. ): sigh. Dear God, please heal her. Deee, keep faith!!!
That text, well,...
Two ‘o clock and I wish that I was sleeping ...
Still on my mind
Growl. I have this nasty hugeass ulcer in my mouth, and it’s painful and irritating. GRRR. ): It’s back to school tmr, and I am so dreading it. Cos it’s bloody accounting, and I’m totally not looking forward to it. GRRR.
Grandma’s sick ):, so we’re gonna have dinner at home instead. Today’s such a breezy day. BRRR. I was wishing for a huge warm bear hug....
Miles away
When I hear them speaking of their lovers, I’ll just sit there at my quiet spot, and miss you. When I hear them calling their lovers “baby”, I’ll just sit there at my quiet spot, and miss you. When I see them holding hands, or showing affection to their lovers, I’ll just sit there at my quiet spot, and miss you. When I see them watching a movie or tv together,...
That beautiful painted scene;
Hello, as most people are waking up and getting ready to start their FRIDAY, let me tell you a secret! my THURSDAY has not even ended! ): I have not slept yet. Stayed up the whole night, staring at the laptop screen, working. I seriously wonder where my perseverance came from. And as I stayed up all night, I realised that I was subconsciously missing you every now and then. & I won’t lie...
Even if the sky is falling down,
Thank God for everything.
Somehow, I don’t know how (?), I managed to finish my Pfizer finance assignment late last night. I really don’t know how I did it, though I feel like I was writing crap/rubbish most of the time. I can’t wait to click that ‘submit’ button and pray that I get a pass so that finance can fly away from my life forever. As for MCR, I’m so...
The world's a roller coaster, and I'm not strapped...
Yknw, I really thought I was doing fine, and that I could cope with everything. But last night, in the middle of the night, after I received several texts from different people, midway through my sleep, I just felt so overwhelmed, and I broke down, and just kept crying and crying. Then I realised that I’m just, only human.
It’s this sudden rush of events happening in life that’s...
November 2009
49 posts
Without you
OMGAWDXZ. ):
I am so tired. I’ve been up on my laptop since like 8+ in the morning, and I’ve not stopped, and sad to say, I’m nowhere near done. )’: My back is aching, I feel like crying. Okay, pardon my rants.
Just 2 days ago, you said, “I don’t even have time for myself, how can I have time for you?” or something along that line, which btw, left me...
“True love doesn’t happen right away; it’s an ever-growing process. It develops...”
– Ricardo Montalban (via quote-book)